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just get a knife and stab me
Oh well, it isnt a good day at all. My conclusion, i 100% prefer individual assignment.
No arguments, no unhappiness.
You can do whatever you want, go according to your idea and how you visualise it to be. Well, you cant expect your group members to visualise what you visualise right? Everyone has different way of thinking, different styles, different way of doing stuffs. Therefore, it is kinda tough when people of different styles work together. There will definitely have arguments, shoutings and impatient reaction towards each other. I seriously dont like that. Oh well, who likes?
That bothers me the whole day, even now. It made me lost my appetite the whole day already. VIDP is stressing me up, and many things related to it are affecting my mood. If this gonna continue, i doubt it is possible to produce any good films.
Just today is enough to drive me mad. The unhappy thoughts kept running in my mind, filtering out all the happy things. My left and right brain are now filled with only these words -- "I'M UNHAPPY IN VIDP!". Someone save me please. I hope these words dont haunt me in my dreams too.. I had enough of it already. Looking at the time now, 12.49am, these words are running in my brain for 13 hours and 30 mins already. I'm going botak soon, all of my hair will soon be plucked off by me. Ahhh~~~ im really turning mad.
I actually wanna try saying something happier... "on a lighter note...", but i dunno how to continue. VIDP VIDP VIDP. Argh! Why it sucks so much? My video competition group doesnt make me feel so bad at all. Or rather, im kinda comfortable in it. Everyone is able to work well and communicates well. We think on the same line. Now? Doesnt seem so positive.
Maybe i had made a wrong decision. I should be brave enough to do what i had decided to before the semester started. It is too late to regret anyway.
Argh...
Stab the indecisive me.
Stab the lack of courage me.
Stab the perfectionist me.
Stab the impatient me.
Stab the bad-tempered me.
Stab the unable to adapt me.
Stab the loves individual work me.
Stab the kena stressed by VIDP me.
Ahh! Stupid brain of mine. Stab it as well.
Boohoo! Im unhappy. 
5/17/2006 01:08:00 AM
Claire
