20061020
rumblings again
Im missing my last semester!!
Even though it was really very shagged and i nearly died, at least the modules are fun and interesting. Im missing animation, im missing the jokes from my funnie mlp lecturer (thou i stopped laughing at his jokes after a few weeks), im missing struggling for my web programming, im missing role-playing and watching videos for my etiquette class. Im even missing IWED cos at least there are some programming codes for me to look there. OMG. I hate this semester.
Ok.. maybe there is only one module that is kinda interesting so far, MMAS, which let me know how to deal with flash better. the rest.. super boring lor. I want some programming~~~ thou i sucks at it, but at least they are really much more interesting to look at compared to project managing and stuffs. language worse... goshhh... how am i going to do assignments for all these modules when im not even interested in them?
EHH. i just remembered design n asethetics. hahahhas... my design sucky la... no concept at all, and this module looks for concepts. Hais.... what if i can only design without concept? Nice can le mah.... dont wan concept la.. i got enough white hairs le, i dont need more. So, dont ask me to think of concepts. SOBS.
ahhh.. dont feel like sleeping. slept for 4 hours just now when i took a nap. these few days i always couldnt wake up after taking a nap. i just continued sleeping till the next morning. pro huh? hahas.. okok.. more like a pig. ^oo^
had a chat with yiting... hais.. i miss my grandpa. I realised, once in a while, i will think of him before i went to sleep and start crying. I never thought that i will miss him so much when he passed away... if only he is still alive.
come to think of it... i miss him, but due to working, i had not been going to the temple to send my prayers to him for quite some time. im always working on sundays and didnt get the chance to go. will he be angry with me? will he forgive me? i know it is kind of silly to ask those qns.. but somehow, i feel that he really is somewhere out there. im not a good grandchild.
i havent been feeling good these few days. i dunno what is wrong with me. i became so pessimistic and i think real way too much. i hate myself.
10/20/2006 03:33:00 AM
Claire
